So I got a letter from the monarch today instead of a simple phone call ANY day last week. Surprise! They decided to promote a server. So I'm still unemployed. I'm actually contemplating taking on a couple of part time nanny jobs.
I am still trying my hardest to stay upbeat and positive but it's hard not to think that there must be something wrong with me. I'm also trying to keep busy with cooking/baking but when a recipe actually does come out right, I eat it. So that's not helping the self-image either.
On the bright side, Mum and Grandma are heading up on Wednesday night. So I'll have ab0ut a week of distraction and good food. I haven't seen my mum since June.
Also I have been informed that I'm receiving a cash out of my college fund seeing as how I graduated. I'm contemplating using the money to move. However I think it'd be silly to spend money in order to move to find work to make money. I'd rather use it to pay bills here and take a trip in Feb to my cousin's wedding on the East coast. And I could buy some pretty rad xmas gifts for a couple of spectacular people.
I also still miss Charlie lots. Like an unhealthy amount. And I'm not 100% what to do about that. It also makes me miss home. Houston home. And my Houston family. My Houston parents.
So anyway each day has ups and downs but I take it step by step because every time I don't succeed, I fail. And I'm not used to that. And I really don't know what I'm supposed to be doing. Because I don't want to do a damn thing. I just feel. And I don't feel happy, for sure.
<3
Monday, October 19, 2009
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Perfect day with my boy and his dog
Ron had today off and he took me and Moxie for a hike outside of Estacada. The 60 mile drive was totally worth it because after a 1.5 miles hike is a natural hot spring. The park service built four private tubs, each hollowed tree trunks which you fill with scalding water from a diverted spring, and mellow with a few buckets of icy river water. Then you get to soak in a wood tub and stare up through the steam into the forest. This was definitely the most relaxing thing we've done in a long, long time.
http://web.oregon.com/hiking/bagby_hot_springs.cfm
And to cap it off we came home and made beef stroganoff with home-made egg noodles. Fantastic day! pictures to come on the Facebook.
http://web.oregon.com/hiking/bagby_hot_springs.cfm
And to cap it off we came home and made beef stroganoff with home-made egg noodles. Fantastic day! pictures to come on the Facebook.
About that time again...
So after looking at the calendar this week, I realized Ron and I are beginning our 6th month together! I was also reminded that: I've been unemployed for four of those months. The good news is I had a second interview today at http://www.monarchhotel.cc/ for a banquet captain position, which is essentially what I had been doing for City Kitchen back in Houston. I'm hoping the background check goes smoothly and I'm awaiting a call back by the end of the week.
In other news, Mom and Grandma Helen are heading up for a week on October 21. This is exciting because I have not seen my mother since before she left for Europe and Grandma has never been to Oregon. I already have a long list of places to take them (mostly restaurants) and things ti see and do.
We have also successfully moved (almost) every single one of our many, many boxes into a one bedroom apartment. While unpacking we discovered some interesting duplicates which total: 16 cutting boards, 4 creme brulee torches, 4 sets of mixing bows and an innumerable amount of towels. I've since made several trips to Goodwill and we almost have suitable places for everything. Lastly I'm trying to find a moderately priced fold-out couch. This will inevitably be found at IKEA, which at the moment I'm boycotting due to a previous ill-fated trip to the 'as-is' section.
While being unemployed I have had the opportunity to explore the neighborhood and the rest of the city. Our apartment is 5 blocks to a really nice park, off leash area for Moxie, playground and swimming pool open in the summer. Trader Joe's is also a few block in the other direction, as well as Safeway, Blockbuster, Walgreens etc. I'm quite happy with the location. In addition to the shopping opportunities I have become an urban harvest opportunist. Basically your persimmons, pears, apples, sage, rosemary, chestnuts, figs, walnuts, blackberries, patty pans, grapes, squash blossoms etc which are hanging over the street or left to with at unsold/empty houses are mine for the picking. Not only is this fun, it is financially sound. And so Moxie and I hunt... and gather.
The other exciting thing about being unemployed, and living in an apartment complex, is getting to know your neighbors. From a distance. For example, our immediate neighbors are drug dealers. I know this because I am politely offered whatever is 'fresh' anytime we happen to be outside at the same time. He is also at home most of the day. In the complex that abuts ours in 'fake orgasm girl'. How do I know she's faking it, you ask? If it was real, and that good, it'd be happening a lot more frequently.
The weather has been gorgeous. low 60s-high 70s, usually sunny and blue skies. A few rainy/cloudy/cold days, but for now they are intermittent. Although I did purchase my first pair of wellies.
All for now. Had to find something productive 'cause I'm missing my Charlie boy and cannot sleep just yet.
love to all.
j
In other news, Mom and Grandma Helen are heading up for a week on October 21. This is exciting because I have not seen my mother since before she left for Europe and Grandma has never been to Oregon. I already have a long list of places to take them (mostly restaurants) and things ti see and do.
We have also successfully moved (almost) every single one of our many, many boxes into a one bedroom apartment. While unpacking we discovered some interesting duplicates which total: 16 cutting boards, 4 creme brulee torches, 4 sets of mixing bows and an innumerable amount of towels. I've since made several trips to Goodwill and we almost have suitable places for everything. Lastly I'm trying to find a moderately priced fold-out couch. This will inevitably be found at IKEA, which at the moment I'm boycotting due to a previous ill-fated trip to the 'as-is' section.
While being unemployed I have had the opportunity to explore the neighborhood and the rest of the city. Our apartment is 5 blocks to a really nice park, off leash area for Moxie, playground and swimming pool open in the summer. Trader Joe's is also a few block in the other direction, as well as Safeway, Blockbuster, Walgreens etc. I'm quite happy with the location. In addition to the shopping opportunities I have become an urban harvest opportunist. Basically your persimmons, pears, apples, sage, rosemary, chestnuts, figs, walnuts, blackberries, patty pans, grapes, squash blossoms etc which are hanging over the street or left to with at unsold/empty houses are mine for the picking. Not only is this fun, it is financially sound. And so Moxie and I hunt... and gather.
The other exciting thing about being unemployed, and living in an apartment complex, is getting to know your neighbors. From a distance. For example, our immediate neighbors are drug dealers. I know this because I am politely offered whatever is 'fresh' anytime we happen to be outside at the same time. He is also at home most of the day. In the complex that abuts ours in 'fake orgasm girl'. How do I know she's faking it, you ask? If it was real, and that good, it'd be happening a lot more frequently.
The weather has been gorgeous. low 60s-high 70s, usually sunny and blue skies. A few rainy/cloudy/cold days, but for now they are intermittent. Although I did purchase my first pair of wellies.
All for now. Had to find something productive 'cause I'm missing my Charlie boy and cannot sleep just yet.
love to all.
j
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